It’s been quite a while since I have taken the time to write anything online. I don’t really know why I do this in the first place, but some of my friends tell me they enjoy reading the things I write.
It has recently been brought to my attention in a casual manner that sometimes the stories of my life and/or my past come across as a little far fetched. This doesn’t upset me at all, and in fact it makes me smile a bit knowing that enough wacky shit has happened that I sound like a bullshit artist. I guess my life is interesting… or at least dramatically troublesome.
Yes, I got into drugs at a very young age… as in before Jr. High. Yes, I was going balls deep into all kinds of potent psychedelics by the time I was all of a freshman in high school. My sister, as well as countless friends (whom were likely involved) can attest to this. Hell, a couple of them were the ones selling it to me… and for this I thank them. Yes, I have had some incredibly strange and volatile relationships. I also have been known to spout off my mouth and despite being a pretty mild mannered guy, I’m ready to ride and I am pretty much up for throwing down at any time. I have been in situations where guns were involved in the worst of ways (yes by that I mean idiots were shooting at other idiots and one time someone that we all knew got shot multiple times and lived). I have a handful of friends and a girlfriend of quite a few years whom can attest to that, because they were there too.
I grew up in a part of town that was okay at best and was in constant decline. It has since become another black hole in the PHX metro map. Home to more gangs, more crime and more drugs than when I was there. My sister is one of my best friends and we have been through some shit together that sounds unbelievable. I know people that have even more insane stories than I do… REGULARLY. (though I doubt you are reading this, yes I’m pointing at YOU Ryan H.)
I grew up in an early divided household that became two dramatically different families. Yes, my mother has worked in a mortuary since I was a child and my stepfather is a Funeral Director. I did some removals as a kid and watched an embalming preparation, step by step in person. I played hide and seek in the mortuary as a kid with another kid my age who’s mother was the manager. Yes, we dared each other to touch dead bodies.
Yes, I have been hospitalized, locked up, down and out, and on top of the world. I’m an alcoholic that no longer practices. Yes I tried to drink myself to death at a pretty early age and it was not uncommon for me to put down a few good pints, and a 12 pack of miller along with a half a quart of whiskey. Actually, it was incredibly common as I did it every night for years.
I have been through some amazing things, and as you can see here, some really embarrassing things that I am not proud of. However, it is the collection of my mistakes that makes me a living breathing (piece of defecating meat) human.
What’s the point?
None really, other than the fact that I am going to start attempting to document every retarded thing that happens to me or around me. Perhaps before I check out, there will be a body of work (?) worth a read or a chuckle.
We shall start with the fact that for Xmas I got the flu and I have been incredibly sick since the night of Xmas eve. I haven’t been able to breath out of my nose at all, and I have been spiking fevers for days. Just a bit ago I took the longest, hottest shower I could stand and became frustrated by the fact that I still could NOT breath through my nose. As I was about to turn the shower off, I plugged my left nostril and blew as hard as I could… and what LAUNCHED out of me was something so hideous that it will haunt my dreams forever. Some people whom know me really well, know that snot is my only real weakness. I can watch pretty much ANYTHING and not be disturbed by it really. However, I was gagging just trying to get the bad picture I got. The THING was stuck to the side of the shower and when I got out I grabbed my phone to snap a picture. The quarter is there to show size… though it does nothing to represent the girth of it. I just couldn’t do more with it and had to flush it. I can now kind of breath, but I think a chunk of my brain is missing…. Enjoy you fucks.